Friday, June 5, 2015

SO  HAM

I AM HE  and AHAM BRAHMA ASMI, meaning “my individual Self is the Universal Self and our true individual Self is not different from God”. This material body cannot be identified with our real self nor is our mind our real identity, nor the intellect. Our individual self is not different from God but due to ignorance we think to be separate from Him.Ignorantly we take upon ourselves the Lord’s responsibilities, forgetting His commands in respect of our own duties, and always think what to eat, drink, how to clothe etc. Our identity is that of an eternal servitor of the Supreme Lord. We are eternally minute individual particles of the Lord, endowed by Him with  powers. From the very time we came into existence He has kept us in His arms and left us not even for a moment apart from Him. His blessed hand is always above our head.
The Lord is the Supreme Being shining forever in the innermost region of the soul. His heart is saturated with mad love for one and all. From eternal bliss we came and to eternal bliss we must return. Every Jiva is a divine channel through which should flow divine love, bliss, power, wisdom but by holding the body for the Self and by identifying ourselves with the perishable body this channel is blocked.HHHhiis own Rasa in all its phases created the Jivas and used them as so many vessels to contain his Rasa. This Rasa made enjoyable is named PREMA. It is a manifestation of Lorfulful
When we lose the body feelings and identify ourselves with the Atma we become close to the Lord. As long as we have body feelings, sex feelings we cannot get rid of  Ahamkara (I-feeling) and Mamakara (Mine-feeling) it is difficult to overcome attachments. Those who do not seek God will not find true awareness of the Atma. They will continue to identify the soul with the body and from this delusion be enslaved by every kind of desire and attachment.  We have to watch our inner self, travel inwardly. Only then can we obtain Atma Anand and are nearing the Lord. Live in the Bhava “everyone is mine”.
As long as we depend on our own exertions, our own individual independent power we live under the Ego-spell which is worthless in value. Instead of sense satisfaction the sole object of our desire should be only to satisfy Him and to behold Him everywhere. Even if engaged in spiritual practice, believing that with the strength of discipline we will overcome difficulties is a mistake. God alone is the dispeller of difficulties. As long as the Ego functions Lords divine grace remains suspended. The scriptures say that the moment a Jiva whole-heartedly says “Krishna, I am yours” all his responsibilities cease,  the Karmic law loses its hold over him. The Self unfolds when the Ego breaks and disappears.  Effort is only where  the Ego exists. Success in meditation comes by feeling that it is the Lord, who is doing everything, that He is verily in front of me and in my heart, aware of all my thoughts. Once self-realization is attained the Ego loses all its significance. A new world opens up  - a world of understanding heavenly beauty. When a Jiva throws off its Maya-addiction through the Lord’s grace he finds his only work is to carry back Prema to Him, to serve Him in and through it. Through this Prema he is bound to Him for ever and ever . Let us be contented with whatever duties are placed before us by Him together with the means for doing the same as well as with the fruits of such acts. He alone possesses complete and true knowledge of our needs and what is good for us. When Prema for the Lord is attained love for all beings automatically follows because He is the sum-total of all living beings.
Lord Krishna said: “All souls are my favorites. I play many games with them till they forget all that is selfish, till they love Me for the sake of love alone as you, oh Radha.” And He said to Uddhava:”If you cannot fix your mind one-pointedly upon Me then live your life as an offering to Me, dedicate whatever you do with no selfish motive. Who constantly thinks of Me without any other thought easily reaches Me.”
And in His manifestation as Lord Haranath  He assured us:” I am always with you and will remain so forever. Did you call me? I came myself, whether you called or not. If you think me not of your own you will cause me pain. All of you are constantly playing in  my heart. What will sustain me if I leave you? When once I accepted you I cannot leave you, even if you leave me.”Lord Kusum Haranath, out of spontaneous love infused and continues to infuse love and devotion into our dry hearts in many mysterious ways. His grace is ever ready to call us His own and to shower benedictions. He has taken us under His sheltering wings, no moment passes when we are free from his benign grace.
As Virat Purusa (cosmic divinity) we form part and parcel of His manifested body and what exists in us must necessarily exist in Him also. He who sees the Paramatma accompanying the individual soul in all bodies and understands that neither the soul nor Paramatma within the destructible body is ever destroyed actually sees  (Bhag.Gita 13/V.28). The Lord, when He desired to taste His own Rasa created the Jivas and used them as so many vessels to contain His Rasa. This Rasa, thus made enjoyable is named PREMA. It is a manifestation of His Hladini Shakti which keeps Him always blissful.
Except our Lord all things are always changing and perishable. May we feel His presence every moment of our life; never say that He is not with us. His nearness will destroy all our weaknesses, all evil thought. Who lives in such a way can neither commit evil acts nor feel disturbed or depressed when he has to face danger, loss, infamy or censure.
Constant waiting with intense longing for the Lord’s arrival is a sign of a true devotee, this mental attitude should be constant. Let us renounce personal glory, greatness, even if there is  only a trace of it. Whatever we do, think, let us dedicate everything, the entire life to the Lord and make a complete offering of ourselves to Him. This is the Bhagavata Dharma as described by Him in Srimad Bhagavatam.

Into the hearts of  Devotees who listen to the legends of the Lord, hymn Him, meditate upon Him, worship and adore Him the Lord enters and by so doing makes ashes of their sins in countless lifetimes of accumulated evil tendencies. Such disinterested love and devotion delights Him. May we always feel His presence every moment of our life, may we never say “He is not with us”. When the heart is full of Prema the Lord draws the soul like a magnet to Himself.

Ruth Baur

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